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Wednesday, March 30th, 2005
7:28 pm	changing journal i'm changing my journal to tekniklytomorro so add me :) this one isnt showing up except on friends lists... (Comment on this)
Monday, March 21st, 2005
10:16 pm	I enjoy being a girl wow where do you start? Hauppauge has NOT been treated well, and its only march. the whole Zack thing, Joe (R.I.P), and probably more i cant think of, I'm just kind of in a tizzy ______________ but on a lighter note, the show was amazing, I'm back at work, and soooo happy the cast party was great until @ 4 am, when i wanted to kill half the cast, but me and kiki left and slept at her house I'm getting a haircut, but i think i'm actually going to go drastic this time, like, short short OH! today Lauren and I kidnapped Alicia because she got into a car accident today and we wanted to make her feel better ....so we went to her house brought her her fav ice cream and pop corn, then blinfolded her shoved her in my back seat, got taco bell and went to plasterkraze to paint, we had SO MUCH FUN oh boy we're awesome, and I actually have free time now! I'm officially going to Bloomsburg! and I figured out I am officially addicted to wendy's fruit bowls, they are pure love 3 months till graduation, whoaaaa ok, I think I'm done <3 (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 1st, 2005
11:42 pm	you see me always happy, and being good at what I do, but the thing that you dont realize, is I'm a DAMN good actress too So, I'm finally getting a well deserved vacation...5 days in florida, oh, SO nice today we had an 8 hour rehearsal...this isnt supposed to happen till the week of the show, and we open 2 weks from friday. got a very random phone call today, but I'm glad I did, we should stay in touch, I miss you <3 and we talked about what happened to one of our friends... Zachary, we are all here for you, and we back you up 100% well, i'm exhausted, and i need to sleep cause were going out for breakfast in the AM and not going to 1st ;) (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 27th, 2005
7:18 pm	aaaaaaand theres the end of vacation and i'm nervous ...for one thing in particular, I dont want the end of the vacation, to mean the end of something else....and i just have this feeling that it will be, and it really sucks, because, that is the last thing i want right now, I love how everything is going right now....yes, love it. ...also for the show ...and I'm going to disney in 2 days! my room is clean, this is rediculous crazy Wait for the guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the boy who kisses your forhead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her." Current Mood: worried (Comment on this)
Friday, February 25th, 2005
11:16 am	finally content with this life i'm leading 1) because the show is going well, and we're opening in 22 days... 2) Disney is in 4 days! 3) 02.23.05 :) 4) my room is amazingly clean and I ACTUALLY like it, lol 5) I have plans for prom....and good ones too :-D so yeah, I'm happy now.  I like it.  I saw movies! *gasp* its true... I saw SAW and 13GHOSTS, Visited Bloom again... I'm like 92% sure I'm going to go there ok heres the fun part... you can ask me any 3 questions you want and I have to answer them or give me 3 facts about anything :)   Current Mood: content (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 14th, 2005
9:00 pm	boooo stupid valentines day   its stupid very stupid, makes you sad, and I dont like it  grrrrr ......new topic, Dan invited me to Smithtown senior prom :) I'm excited :) as far as my prom, still not sure if im going, probably not at lease I'll be able to wear a dress still hahaha :-D going to bloomsburg this weekend, WHOOT soo excited.. oh and theres only 16 days till Senior class trip to disney,  and 32 days till opening night OH MY GOD.... sheesh (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 12th, 2005
11:10 am	a night in the life of Jessyca and Melissa... 2/11 1-ulta to fine fire engine red lipstick because I wanted some 2-walmart...enough said 3-walbaums for cotton candy 4-starbucks to explain my case...longer story there 5-Hauppauge palace diner- oookay...Mel gets a choclate malted...I started off with coleslaw....then asked for pickles and crackers.....we get the bill $5.87.....we have $5.84......I turn to the man behind us..."excuse me do you have 3 cents?"...his wife gives me a dirty look...guy that works there comes over and is like "dont worry about it"....turns out hes working the cash register.....so mel goes to pay and hes like "whenver your short of money just let me know and ill take care of it"...so Mel smiled and was like "okay thanks so much goodnight".....I asked what he said so she repeats it and simply replys "thats what you get for being cute!"...and we just laughed. oooh boy, never ceases to amuse me ... ;) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
9:46 pm	nothing, at all I'm so bored and tired theres nothing to do uuuughhhhh :-/ oh, and i'm not going to prom (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 6th, 2005
10:50 pm	why am I always the one being led on, or being walked all over? I am SUCH a pushover, and I believe mostly everything anyone says to me and everyone seems to know, that if you have no ride, or your bored, hey, call Jessyca, she'll drive us anywhere I hate baing a pushover, but I like to make people happy, and I apparently do everything I can to make people happy I buy people things, pay for their stuff, and never ask for anything in return, because it all doesnt matter to me, until now, when I come to the realization, I get used, alot, and it sucks I hate having to feel like I have to do everything for everyone, so that they will like me, I just want to be myself, and have people like me, not have to drive them everywhere, or pick them up somehwere, I mean, I dont care, but it hurts when I look back and relize I've been used, ALOT and the people at work were talking about weight issues today..........I'm not even going to go there I just want someone else's life, someone who is loved, someone who people care about without having to spend all their money and trying hard to look beautiful all the time, someone who can wear anything and look amazing and not care about what they look like, I want a new life, I'm so sick of this one   Current Music: I'm Not Okay - My Chemical Romance (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, January 28th, 2005
10:13 am	oooooooooooooohSNAP tonight should be utterly amusing... Missa, Schebz, Mike, Dan, and some other guy are coming over, and, yeah, this should be fun... wed. night i chilled with Missa at her friends house, met her friends friend who was so cute, so cute, then I went out to Patchogue with Antonette for the night, and yeah...haha that rocked, LOTS... "oh, girls, I have a stalker from texas here this week, he just randomly showed up, so just remember to lock the doors....ok good" I'm cutting my hair on monday.... da da dumm... I hate haircuts, its such a depressing day rehearsals are going SO SLOW, damn, we havnt fully blocked act 2 yet, and we have a show in a little over a month.... yeah i think thats all.....haha tonight should be awesome... (Comment on this)
Monday, January 24th, 2005
3:36 pm	I could be an accident but I'm still trying.... So i'm bored snow day went to the mall with Alicia no one loves me enough to hang out tonight </3>I duno, i'm bored and sad that no one cares about me :( grr *sigh* Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Friday, January 21st, 2005
5:15 pm	Uhm.... went to Fridays with the guys last night, yummy then Baker and Gene came over after, and stayed for a while today was stupid school THEN I came home and found out I GOT ACCEPTED TO BLOOMSBURG! I also was accepted to Adelphi, so far :) Tonight Missa's coming over and we're having another girls night, they're good times :) I miss people that are away at college....alot <3 the Marines are some neat guys....damn better than the army my cellphone is a piece of crap I am haunted by that stupid movie "White Noise" (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 17th, 2005
3:54 pm	I only see you, and i dont think you notice me... I went and saw White Noise last night :) I had fun, a really neat guy came and watched it with me, then we hung out afterwards :) I have Napolean Dynamite, we didnt get to watch it, but I wanna.... :-/ and I dont watch movies alone.. I want to do something tonight, but I dont have anyone to do anything with, everyones busy... :( boo Trembling Hold me now I'm torn between silence and violent expression Tired of believing everyone wants to care And cherish someone I'm so scared of never having anyone (Comment on this)
Friday, January 14th, 2005
3:55 pm	i read about the afterlife, but i never really lived eh i felt it was time for an update ...Rehearsals are slow I went out to FONDUE with allie, and then to Fridays for dessert, and saw Mr. P.....AWKWARD we got an inversion table, dont ask, just come over and see it i decided i need a haircut, I'm thinking, like right to my shoulers, which would mean cutting like, a foot off, WHAT DO YOU THINK!? Acoustic cafe is tonight, might be doing some Improv with Jaime Alicia and Evan... Missa is possibly sleeping over afterwards, we went for ice cream yesterday after school...it was cuteeee <3 I havnt worked in over a week, and its REALLY wierd.. and some people are going to learn VERY SOON, that what goes around, comes around.....be, fucking warned, if you think i'm talking to you, because chances are your right and i'm going to get you good I need to find out when LITTLE SHOP auditions are... I like it when people make me laugh, i really do, and i decided i dont laugh alot, but one person in particular makes me laugh...or "giggle" alot, its fun I lost 8 lbs already....maybe by the show i'll have a decent body, and i wont have a problem wearing tight small clothes the chorus teacher told me i was an "attractive young lady", and i should go into theatre because i'm good....i think he is on crack EVERYONE SHOULD COME SEE HOW TO SUCCEED IN BUSINEES WITHOUT REALLY TRYING on March 18th and 19th......mark your calendars NOW This is the most random entry i ever wrote, and i like it, bye bye (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 9th, 2005
8:25 pm	short summary NYSTEA was great SO MANY amazing quotes "is that a vagina?.......wait, one more time"-Barchi "BOOBS, AND BUTT"-Me "MY HORMONES ARE RAGING!"- some dude "How does it feel to be the hottest girls here?"- jealous chick "prepare to roll ..... ROLL OUT NOW!"- sign at snow tubing "I lost my voice"- Alicia... "I hope thats the ONLY thing you lost this weekend" -Mr. Pomelaritz so many more but it would be silly to write them all.... the weekend was the BEST 3 days i've had all year..... <3 I cant wait for all rehearsals and stuff, I love all the chicks, seriously, but i STILL dont believe what Alicia saaid, that CANT be true ... lol today was schnebz's bday WHOOT happy bday <3 we went to fridays, yum   Current Mood: tired (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 6th, 2005
10:34 pm	WHOOO! NYSTEA is tomorrow! and for all you uncoultured knuckleheads out there....that means New York State Theatre Educators Association damn I'm so excited, its my last conference, and this year is going to be so much better than my sophomore year, no offense to anyone that went htat year though, jsut I'm a Senior now, and then i was a sophomore Since then I've become such a different person and ESPECIALLY a different actress, and this year, I'm so happy to be friends with everyone thats going<3 seniors, whos last year it is, Me, Danielle, Jen, Alicia (roomie<3)Jaime, Rich, Lamarca, evan, and the Junior girls who are jsut too adorable and sweet, Schnebel (of course...17 on sunday ;) ) Jen, Melissa ,Amanda, Nicole D, Kevin, Laura,Vecci, JJ, Breeanna and Sammie Heuer I absolutely LOVE each person that is going, and they truly mean so much to me, hah, otherwise, if they didnt, I SO could NOT spend 4 hours a day 5 days a week with them... <3 ah man, now i'm sad, I'm graduating soon, and i'm going to depart from all these amazing people, who REALLY are like such a small family, or as Kimmy Magnowski said "a happy little school of fish"...or something....lol NYSTEA...... Y'all Smell Good <3<3<3<3<3 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 2nd, 2005
12:15 am	With this year, lets start anew ok so, the past few days chaos, drama, work, some more drama, lies, truth, and a new friend Basically, Me + Amanda Schnebz = a fucking HOT pair.... we're partners in crime, yes we are.... i left genes majorly awesome party at 11 this am went home showered and went to work till 6 30 came home went to the Schnebz house to watch movies and eat thin and crusty pizza.... :) lol school starts again on Monday...technically tomorrow.... HAH, did anyone catch that one? yeah thats how i came up with this sn... ok, well, tomorrow is a hard core day of shopping with Amanda for NYSTEA which is this weekend...as is her BIRTHDAY! and i already have a lil somethign planned for her for her bday :) its gonna be super neat... wow, this is my last time at NYSTEA, this sucks, now its 2005, which means in 6 months, i'm going to be graduating, and in 8 months, I'll be going off to college, away from hauppauge, only to come back for vacations.........god, its like a new life, and its all happening in only 8 months...but i'm ready, I cant wait to go, and finally be on my own, and to meet new people.. alright i cant think anymore, goodnight (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 29th, 2004
1:19 am	No good deed goes unpunished, no act of charity goes unresented... sunday i worked 8 hours Monday i worked 8 hours today i worked 4 hours then I came home, set up and had the Theatre party lol we played charades....let me tell you, its 23940812734 times better with drama kids, so much more animated.. and also "scene it Junior" which i have to say is awesomeee then afterwards, me and Teresa brought the Manhunt boys some cookies, I got raped by Jake, along with a concussion from him slamming me down on the cement so hard (its not really as dirty as it sounds), he just plowed into me and knocked me onto the cement, while being on top of me and NOT getting off then we saw Meet the Fockers....so effing hilarious  "he has a rubber boobie" "aaaassssssholeeee" so yeah, i have off tomorrow, thank god, i can sleep late, maybe get my car washed, and friday is New Years Eve...yes, FINALLY going to a party, havnt been to one since......july? august?  ......well, i'm officially exhausted, and i need sleep, so, goodnight :) (Comment on this)
Friday, December 24th, 2004
12:05 am	Cast List went up Okay so I didnt get the part i wanted but i think i'm REALLY excited about the one i did get ;Hedy LaRue is ....let me quote from one of the Musical sites.... "Finch's secretary complicates his romance for a while. She is Hedy, a flaming sex-pot who is Biggley's personal property, and for that reason brought into the establishment. She proceeds to create havoc among the male workers, who are reminded (in one of the show's finest production sequences) that "A Secretary is Not a Toy". Finch uses her to good advantage to eliminate one of the higher-ups and thus gets his job. Hedy, however, has eyes only for Finch, and eventually succeeds in enticing him into her arms for a passionate kiss ..........each week's clue will be given by the  scantily- dressed World Wide Wicket Treasure Girl, Hedy La Rue."< at some point theres a scene where i'm wearing nothing but a toweloh god, i have SO MUCH work to do for this show, i already have it set, i'm going to lose liek 20 lbs, and my entire stomache, so i can look good in small tight clothes, so i can BE sexy and feel sexy so i can play the part better...</P> k thats all <3 (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 20th, 2004
10:15 pm	callbacks and a side of Sushi went out friday, had fun :) ty :) ok so today were callbacks, nervousness and panick set in around 3 o'clock but i got there and did the absolute best i could......and had to read and sing for Hedy too, which i didnt know AT ALL caue i didnt prepare for it cause i wasnt told to.... but i hope i got smitty...soooo badly   everyone did SO well, and theres more callbacks tomorrow, inbetween musical theatre preformances, GOD, thank god i ge to miss like EVERY period tomorrow, i'm only going to lunch, physics, gym an musical theatre <3 I love this whole "acting thing" lol gets you outta so much class which is SO not needed when your gonna be a theatre teacher <3 afterwards Lauren and I went for Sushi, had nifty dinner talk, then i drove her home, and i filled my addiction...for myspace. Oh and Gene visited callbacks today everyone was like OMG its GENE!!!! who doesnt love that guy? i duno one soul who doesnt... I'm out, i need sleep like whoa   (1 Comment |Comment on this)