its time to try

changing journal

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 00:29:26 GMT

i'm changing my journal to tekniklytomorro

so add me :)

this one isnt showing up except on friends lists...

I enjoy being a girl

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 03:31:09 GMT

wow
where do you start?

Hauppauge has NOT been treated well, and its only march.
the whole Zack thing, Joe (R.I.P), and probably more i cant think of, I'm just kind of in a tizzy

______________

but on a lighter note, the show was amazing, I'm back at work, and soooo happy

the cast party was great until @ 4 am, when i wanted to kill half the cast, but me and kiki left and slept at her house

I'm getting a haircut, but i think i'm actually going to go drastic this time, like, short short

OH! today Lauren and I kidnapped Alicia because she got into a car accident today and we wanted to make her feel better
....so we went to her house brought her her fav ice cream and pop corn, then blinfolded her shoved her in my back seat, got taco bell and went to plasterkraze to paint, we had SO MUCH FUN

oh boy we're awesome, and I actually have free time now!
I'm officially going to Bloomsburg!

and I figured out I am officially addicted to wendy's fruit bowls, they are pure love

3 months till graduation, whoaaaa
ok, I think I'm done <3

you see me always happy, and being good at what I do,

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 04:49:21 GMT

but the thing that you dont realize, is I'm a DAMN good actress too

So, I'm finally getting a well deserved vacation...5 days in florida, oh, SO nice

today we had an 8 hour rehearsal...this isnt supposed to happen till the week of the show, and we open 2 weks from friday.

got a very random phone call today, but I'm glad I did, we should stay in touch, I miss you <3
and we talked about what happened to one of our friends... Zachary, we are all here for you, and we back you up 100%

well, i'm exhausted, and i need to sleep cause were going out for breakfast in the AM and not going to 1st ;)

aaaaaaand theres the end of vacation

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 00:25:38 GMT

and i'm nervous
...for one thing in particular, I dont want the end of the vacation, to mean the end of something else....and i just have this feeling that it will be, and it really sucks, because, that is the last thing i want right now, I love how everything is going right now....yes, love it.
...also for the show
...and I'm going to disney in 2 days!

my room is clean, this is rediculous crazy

Wait for the guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the boy who kisses your forhead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

finally content with this life i'm leading

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 16:27:01 GMT

1) because the show is going well, and we're opening in 22 days...
2) Disney is in 4 days!
3) 02.23.05 :)
4) my room is amazingly clean and I ACTUALLY like it, lol
5) I have plans for prom....and good ones too :-D

so yeah, I'm happy now. I like it. I saw movies! *gasp* its true...
I saw SAW and 13GHOSTS,

Visited Bloom again... I'm like 92% sure I'm going to go there

ok heres the fun part... you can ask me any 3 questions you want and I have to answer them or give me 3 facts about anything :)

boooo

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 02:10:33 GMT

stupid valentines day

its stupid
very stupid, makes you sad, and I dont like it grrrrr

......new topic, Dan invited me to Smithtown senior prom :) I'm excited :)

as far as my prom, still not sure if im going, probably not
at lease I'll be able to wear a dress still hahaha :-D

going to bloomsburg this weekend, WHOOT soo excited.. oh and theres only 16 days till Senior class trip to disney, and 32 days till opening night

OH MY GOD.... sheesh

a night in the life of Jessyca and Melissa...

Sat, 12 Feb 2005 19:14:45 GMT

2/11

1-ulta to fine fire engine red lipstick because I wanted some
2-walmart...enough said
3-walbaums for cotton candy
4-starbucks to explain my case...longer story there
5-Hauppauge palace diner- oookay...Mel gets a choclate malted...I started off with coleslaw....then asked for pickles and crackers.....we get the bill $5.87.....we have $5.84......I turn to the man behind us..."excuse me do you have 3 cents?"...his wife gives me a dirty look...guy that works there comes over and is like "dont worry about it"....turns out hes working the cash register.....so mel goes to pay and hes like "whenver your short of money just let me know and ill take care of it"...so Mel smiled and was like "okay thanks so much goodnight".....I asked what he said so she repeats it and simply replys "thats what you get for being cute!"...and we just laughed.

oooh boy, never ceases to amuse me ... ;)

nothing, at all

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 02:52:35 GMT

I'm so bored

and tired

theres nothing to do
uuuughhhhh :-/

oh, and i'm not going to prom

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 04:04:12 GMT

why am I always the one being led on, or being walked all over?

I am SUCH a pushover, and I believe mostly everything anyone says to me

and everyone seems to know, that if you have no ride, or your bored, hey, call Jessyca, she'll drive us anywhere
I hate baing a pushover, but I like to make people happy, and I apparently do everything I can to make people happy

I buy people things, pay for their stuff, and never ask for anything in return, because it all doesnt matter to me, until now, when I come to the realization, I get used, alot, and it sucks

I hate having to feel like I have to do everything for everyone, so that they will like me, I just want to be myself, and have people like me, not have to drive them everywhere, or pick them up somehwere, I mean, I dont care, but it hurts when I look back and relize I've been used, ALOT

and the people at work were talking about weight issues today..........I'm not even going to go there

I just want someone else's life, someone who is loved, someone who people care about without having to spend all their money and trying hard to look beautiful all the time, someone who can wear anything and look amazing and not care about what they look like, I want a new life, I'm so sick of this one

oooooooooooooohSNAP

Fri, 28 Jan 2005 15:18:21 GMT

tonight should be utterly amusing...

Missa, Schebz, Mike, Dan, and some other guy are coming over, and, yeah, this should be fun...

wed. night i chilled with Missa at her friends house, met her friends friend who was so cute, so cute, then

I went out to Patchogue with Antonette for the night, and yeah...haha that rocked, LOTS... "oh, girls, I have a stalker from texas here this week, he just randomly showed up, so just remember to lock the doors....ok good"

I'm cutting my hair on monday.... da da dumm... I hate haircuts, its such a depressing day

rehearsals are going SO SLOW, damn, we havnt fully blocked act 2 yet, and we have a show in a little over a month....

yeah i think thats all.....haha tonight should be awesome...

I could be an accident but I'm still trying....

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 23:40:00 GMT

So i'm bored
snow day
went to the mall with Alicia

no one loves me enough to hang out tonight </3>I duno, i'm bored and sad that no one cares about me :( grr

*sigh*

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 23:00:03 GMT

Uhm....

went to Fridays with the guys last night, yummy
then Baker and Gene came over after, and stayed for a while

today was stupid school
THEN

I came home and found out I GOT ACCEPTED TO BLOOMSBURG! I also was accepted to Adelphi, so far :)

Tonight Missa's coming over and we're having another girls night, they're good times :)

I miss people that are away at college....alot <3
the Marines are some neat guys....damn better than the army
my cellphone is a piece of crap
I am haunted by that stupid movie "White Noise"

I only see you, and i dont think you notice me...

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 21:10:29 GMT

I went and saw White Noise last night
:) I had fun, a really neat guy came and watched it with me, then we hung out afterwards :)

I have Napolean Dynamite, we didnt get to watch it, but I wanna.... :-/ and I dont watch movies alone..

I want to do something tonight, but I dont have anyone to do anything with, everyones busy... :( boo

Trembling
Hold me now
I'm torn between silence and violent expression
Tired of believing everyone wants to care
And cherish someone 
I'm so scared of never having anyone

i read about the afterlife, but i never really lived

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 21:02:34 GMT

eh i felt it was time for an update

...Rehearsals are slow
I went out to FONDUE with allie, and then to Fridays for dessert, and saw Mr. P.....AWKWARD

we got an inversion table, dont ask, just come over and see it

i decided i need a haircut, I'm thinking, like right to my shoulers, which would mean cutting like, a foot off,
WHAT DO YOU THINK!?

Acoustic cafe is tonight, might be doing some Improv with Jaime Alicia and Evan...
Missa is possibly sleeping over afterwards, we went for ice cream yesterday after school...it was cuteeee <3

I havnt worked in over a week, and its REALLY wierd..
and some people are going to learn VERY SOON, that what goes around, comes around.....be, fucking warned, if you think i'm talking to you, because chances are your right and i'm going to get you good

I need to find out when LITTLE SHOP auditions are...

I like it when people make me laugh, i really do, and i decided i dont laugh alot, but one person in particular makes me laugh...or "giggle" alot, its fun

I lost 8 lbs already....maybe by the show i'll have a decent body, and i wont have a problem wearing tight small clothes

the chorus teacher told me i was an "attractive young lady", and i should go into theatre because i'm good....i think he is on crack

EVERYONE SHOULD COME SEE HOW TO SUCCEED IN BUSINEES WITHOUT REALLY TRYING on March 18th and 19th......mark your calendars NOW

This is the most random entry i ever wrote, and i like it, bye bye

short summary

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 01:37:30 GMT

NYSTEA was great

SO MANY amazing quotes
"is that a vagina?.......wait, one more time"-Barchi
"BOOBS, AND BUTT"-Me
"MY HORMONES ARE RAGING!"- some dude
"How does it feel to be the hottest girls here?"- jealous chick
"prepare to roll ..... ROLL OUT NOW!"- sign at snow tubing
"I lost my voice"- Alicia... "I hope thats the ONLY thing you lost this weekend" -Mr. Pomelaritz

so many more but it would be silly to write them all....

the weekend was the BEST 3 days i've had all year..... <3 I cant wait for all rehearsals and stuff, I love all the chicks, seriously, but i STILL dont believe what Alicia saaid, that CANT be true ... lol

today was schnebz's bday WHOOT happy bday <3
we went to fridays, yum

WHOOO!

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 03:42:32 GMT

NYSTEA is tomorrow!

and for all you uncoultured knuckleheads out there....that means New York State Theatre Educators Association

damn I'm so excited, its my last conference, and this year is going to be so much better than my sophomore year, no offense to anyone that went htat year though, jsut I'm a Senior now, and then i was a sophomore

Since then I've become such a different person and ESPECIALLY a different actress, and this year, I'm so happy to be friends with everyone thats going<3 seniors, whos last year it is, Me, Danielle, Jen, Alicia (roomie<3)Jaime, Rich, Lamarca, evan, and the Junior girls who are jsut too adorable and sweet, Schnebel (of course...17 on sunday ;) ) Jen, Melissa ,Amanda, Nicole D, Kevin, Laura,Vecci, JJ, Breeanna and Sammie Heuer

I absolutely LOVE each person that is going, and they truly mean so much to me, hah, otherwise, if they didnt, I SO could NOT spend 4 hours a day 5 days a week with them... <3

ah man, now i'm sad, I'm graduating soon, and i'm going to depart from all these amazing people, who REALLY are like such a small family, or as Kimmy Magnowski said "a happy little school of fish"...or something....lol

NYSTEA...... Y'all Smell Good <3<3<3<3<3

With this year, lets start anew

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 05:28:02 GMT

ok so, the past few days
chaos, drama, work, some more drama, lies, truth, and a new friend

Basically, Me + Amanda Schnebz = a fucking HOT pair....
we're partners in crime, yes we are....

i left genes majorly awesome party at 11 this am
went home showered and went to work till 6 30
came home

went to the Schnebz house to watch movies and eat thin and crusty pizza.... :) lol
school starts again on Monday...technically tomorrow....
HAH, did anyone catch that one? yeah thats how i came up with this sn...

ok, well, tomorrow is a hard core day of shopping with Amanda for NYSTEA which is this weekend...as is her BIRTHDAY!
and i already have a lil somethign planned for her for her bday :) its gonna be super neat...

wow, this is my last time at NYSTEA, this sucks, now its 2005, which means in 6 months, i'm going to be graduating, and in 8 months, I'll be going off to college, away from hauppauge, only to come back for vacations.........god, its like a new life, and its all happening in only 8 months...but i'm ready, I cant wait to go, and finally be on my own, and to meet new people..

alright i cant think anymore, goodnight

No good deed goes unpunished, no act of charity goes unresented...

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 06:29:55 GMT

sunday i worked 8 hours
Monday i worked 8 hours
today i worked 4 hours

then I came home, set up and had the Theatre party
lol we played charades....let me tell you, its 23940812734 times better with drama kids, so much more animated..
and also "scene it Junior" which i have to say is awesomeee

then afterwards, me and Teresa brought the Manhunt boys some cookies, I got raped by Jake, along with a concussion from him slamming me down on the cement so hard (its not really as dirty as it sounds), he just plowed into me and knocked me onto the cement, while being on top of me and NOT getting off

then we saw Meet the Fockers....so effing hilarious "he has a rubber boobie" "aaaassssssholeeee"

so yeah, i have off tomorrow, thank god, i can sleep late, maybe get my car washed, and friday is New Years Eve...yes, FINALLY going to a party, havnt been to one since......july? august?

......well, i'm officially exhausted, and i need sleep, so, goodnight :)

Cast List went up

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 05:08:40 GMT

Okay so I didnt get the part i wanted
but i think i'm REALLY excited about the one i did get

;Hedy LaRue is ....let me quote from one of the Musical sites....

"Finch's secretary complicates his romance for a while. She is Hedy, a flaming sex-pot who is Biggley's personal property, and for that reason brought into the establishment. She proceeds to create havoc among the male workers, who are reminded (in one of the show's finest production sequences) that "A Secretary is Not a Toy". Finch uses her to good advantage to eliminate one of the higher-ups and thus gets his job. Hedy, however, has eyes only for Finch, and eventually succeeds in enticing him into her arms for a passionate kiss ..........each week's clue will be given by the scantily- dressed World Wide Wicket Treasure Girl, Hedy La Rue."<

at some point theres a scene where i'm wearing nothing but a toweloh god, i have SO MUCH work to do for this show, i already have it set, i'm going to lose liek 20 lbs, and my entire stomache, so i can look good in small tight clothes, so i can BE sexy and feel sexy so i can play the part better...</P>
k thats all <3

callbacks and a side of Sushi

Tue, 21 Dec 2004 03:22:54 GMT

went out friday, had fun :) ty :)

ok so today were callbacks, nervousness and panick set in around 3 o'clock

but i got there and did the absolute best i could......and had to read and sing for Hedy too, which i didnt know AT ALL caue i didnt prepare for it cause i wasnt told to....

but i hope i got smitty...soooo badly

everyone did SO well, and theres more callbacks tomorrow, inbetween musical theatre preformances, GOD, thank god i ge to miss like EVERY period tomorrow, i'm only going to lunch, physics, gym an musical theatre <3 I love this whole "acting thing" lol gets you outta so much class which is SO not needed when your gonna be a theatre teacher <3

afterwards Lauren and I went for Sushi, had nifty dinner talk, then i drove her home, and i filled my addiction...for myspace.

Oh and Gene visited callbacks today everyone was like OMG its GENE!!!! who doesnt love that guy? i duno one soul who doesnt...

I'm out, i need sleep like whoa

so, the callback list went up today

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 21:11:31 GMT

I got called back for SMITTY, and Smitty only.....

i was pretty pissed when i first saw it, cause i thought it was a small speaking role, then i looked it up and found out she sings 5 songs, and has a pretty big speaking role</p>

I really hope i get it then

so I'm not that upset now, now i'm just freaking out cause i want my voice back in time for callbaks so i can rock that hard and get the part of Smitty

..............oh, and i'm looking forward to Friday, i just hope this one isnt a liar and doesnt not come through with his plans, cause he seems good........i hope...

and saturday night i'm going with Antonette to see Lindsays show DAMN YANKEES, at Ward Mellville Highschool..... GO!

could it be any worse?

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 15:07:04 GMT

auditions for the musical are monday....so what happens to me on thursday? my throat hurts...what happens friday? i lose my voice...WONDERFUL

i seriously think this happens to me out of nerves, it happens before all auditions for me...so i have to go to the doctor in about 10 minutes, and hopefully he can gimme something that can repair this annoying ass sound coming from my throat,
i kind of sound like a croaking frog when i try to talk

so i'm not talking for the rest of the weekend <----- that'll be soo hard

you are the piece of me that I am looking for...

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 04:32:16 GMT

so i didnt want to go to friendly's tonight cause i just didnt, but my mom and dad and sister wanted ice cream, so i go with my sister

and that guy was there again....GOD, hes cute, ... yeah

....I might be going to friendly's more now :)... not for ice cream though cause i'm losing weight for the musical I NEED to .. already down 3 lbs from last week...slow, but it'll get better :)

uhmmm... I'm exhausted, i have no work tomorrow :) and i can sleep late !!! :).. but we're putting up the christmas tree..... and work sunday from 9 am - 5 30 pm....WHOOT

.....sleepy time for Jessy.... night night <3

a lost heart, a lost soul...

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 04:10:34 GMT

um.....I want a boy

i'm exhausted from work

Jordan at work has the most adorable boyfriend, and its liek a movie watching them, cause we saw it all from the first time he came in and such

i gotta go i'll update tomorrow

time for an update much?

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 01:45:17 GMT

so i went to Bloomsburg...i loooove it

Going to work keeps me sane, i swear, it does
life is starting to suck again

i'm working on thanksgiving, double the pay for half the work, it really rocks

I gotta start filling out college applications, i have everything but the applications and the teacher reccommendation forms....

my cousin and her friends rock, i swear, it was so much fun being there, next time, i'm finding us guys, and i'm staying longer...wether Erin likes it or not ;) <3 sun chips and cookies...NO CHINESE FOOD! "are those bubbles?"

still havnt found out the musical... was supposed to yesterday, uuugh its torture